I know that everyone who is not pregnant would be mad at me for calling myself fat, when I'm pregnant. And I don't think I am, but I do feel like everything looks and fits differently now. Suddenly my boobs are bigger and my tummy is bloated. And this happened very quickly. I remember thinking, I can't be showing yet. No one starts showing at 8 weeks. But it only got worse from there. I think I have officially "popped" now, so to speak. Last Friday I had 4 people tell me that I was showing now. They would say that in an endearing sort of way. And I suppose it is exciting but it also felt like a socially acceptable way of saying "you're tummy is getting fatter." Haha. Do not think that you can no longer say this to me, I realize that I have popped but has anyone else experienced this feeling at the start of their pregnancy??
I am super excited to have a baby! I'm even excited to have that big round belly. But I am not excited to be in that awkward stage before it becomes a big round belly. The stage where people can't tell if you're pregnant or just gaining weight. Nothing fits me anymore. My regular clothes look weird and maternity clothes are too big. But it's the stage we all had to go through, right?
I also find it funny when people tell me that I don't look any different. That I'm not showing at all. What's funny isn't that they are saying that, what's funny is how I don't like hearing that. Lol. Did I always look this fat to you? But obviously they don't scrutinize my body the way I do. A few pounds is never as noticeable to someone else. And I know they are trying to be nice. I've even thought that about my friends who have been pregnant. But I'm sure they could tell that they looked different.
Oh, the joys of this stage. Pretty soon here I'll probably start taking some belly pictures.
I was showing right after the 1st trimester and was pretty embarrassed by it! I couldn't fit into jeans practically at all and went through an awkward phase before getting some maternity clothes. I totally agree with feeling weird/upset when someone tells you you don't look any different! Also, early on I started a new calling and met people from the other ward in the building. I just assumed they guessed I was pregnant, but were quite surprised when I told them. They had no "before" shot so they just thought I was always that chunky in the middle. I wish I could tell you the weight melts off afterwards...but don't worry, it's worth it for having a healthy baby! Good luck!!! - Amy (Hancock) Yeung
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